some of my friends are collecting their 300 dollars check for the edusave bursaries they deserve. my mother asked me :"what abt urs this yr?" i then realise my academic performance in 2009 entirely hit rock bottom. the most dissappointing year. sorry mum. i wanna work hard i wanna score well. but i alr lost my drive to study last yr. my legacy of the 5 years of consecutive edusave scholarships ended in 2008. i am doomed. i just hope a levels will turn out fine. i still continue to have nightmares of having fail gp and becoming unable to get into local uni. the thought of it just made me cower in fear the moments i woke up, until i realise its just a dream not reality.
